Well, I met the 'new' endocrinologist. Turns out she's on a contract and may not renew, so that sucks, because she's pretty darn cool.
So here's the scoop, friends. My lymph nodes are swollen and she thinks I need an ultrasound to look at my neck again.
For some reason, I thought I'd have to go in and fight and convince, and when she touched my neck she made a face and started 'thinking' (as in, making a face of deep thought lol) which surprised me. I figured that whoever I saw would chalk it up to "you're fighting something off and don't know what it is yet", and that I'd have to really plead for an ultrasound. Turns out she was concerned enough on her own to just think it's a good idea.
Which, you know, scares me even more. The right lymph node under my jaw has been swollen for a couple of weeks now and not painful to the touch necessarily, but feels 'pinchy' a lot like it did before I had my thyroid removed. The last three days there is a lymph node in the right side of my neck, behind my ear (I don't know how better to describe it) that is swollen and painful, to the point that sometimes it hurts when I turn my head. Today, feeling good, hopefully it stays that way.
So these things are concerning. She didn't feel any masses but they didn't feel the 1.1cm mass in my thyroid when it was in there, either, so that doesn't mean much. We're going to alter my medication and do bloodwork in 6 weeks, I'll have an ultrasound sometime in the next couple of weeks and hopefully by the end of hte month we'll know enough to either relax and be grateful, or develop a new plan.
So that's that.
How am I feeling? I think for a few hours I felt very reflective and a little sad, a little taken aback by the whole thing, honestly. I thought the pain my lymph nodes would prove to be 'all in my head' and I'd feel like a dork but have nothing to worry about. Here I am, not feeling like a dork and still hoping I have nothing to worry about but not quite convinced anymore that that is true.
If you're reading this, you'll know what's up. I'm not posting it, I'm not really telling anyone other than my few peeps, and I'm pretty much just trying to let this slide into the back of my mind as much as possible. It doesn't mean you can't talk to me about it, it just means I'm not posting this on FB or anything until there are definitive things to say. Right now it's just feelings and speculation.
Onward we go.