I'm trying to make my grocery list. I'm looking at this list and I have this (ir)rational fear that the things I eat are going to make this cancer worse. They're going to kill me. There are some chemicals and terrible things that are going to feed my cancer and make me sick.
I know that it's true. And I know that's it's coming from an irrational place. So, I'm trying not to freeze up because I can't, in one day, figure out what I'm going to do about that, but I have to also bring food in the house.