Friday, May 25, 2012

First sign of anxiety

I'm trying to make my grocery list. I'm looking at this list and I have this (ir)rational fear that the things I eat are going to make this cancer worse. They're going to kill me. There are some chemicals and terrible things that are going to feed my cancer and make me sick.

I know that it's true. And I know that's it's coming from an irrational place. So, I'm trying not to freeze up because I can't, in one day, figure out what I'm going to do about that, but I have to also bring food in the house.



  1. Oh, Kristina, thank you so much for keeping this blog of your journey. I am so grateful to be able to go along for the ride. But seriously, on the topic of this particular entry, what you eat DOES affect the cancer. Specifically, SUGAR. Cancer cells are fed by sugar. Don't eat it! You are such a researcher in your own right, you will be able to find all the studies that have been done to confirm this. It's something I wish Steve Jobs could have been told.
    Anyway, just wanted to put my two cents worth in, as well as telling you how much I have always admired you and love you. Just know that I am sending you big hugs every day from Colorado.

  2. Not weird. I get it. You aren't in control of the cancer weather you eat sugar or not. I'd say now isn't the time to try and blame yourself for eating something that might have fed or be feeding the cancer. It's not your fault. I'm glad you recognize this as a sign of anxiety and I support you in your grocery shopping.