Wednesday, June 6, 2012

At the end of the day

at the end of the day
the tears come because his arms are
and I don't have to explain it or defend it
they come because I am a
child inside
who is angry about how unfair this is
this cancer
the tears come because
i don't want my body
cut open
parts removed
parts of me, chipped away
i don't want it
the tears come because i am
afraid it will hurt
that i don't want my
life to change
in this irrevocable
unwanted way
I'm sad to let go of the
that I was 12 days ago
6 months ago
before I ever had to say the word
to myself, my husband, my children
to have it woven into the
of my life
the tears come because
it's time

1 comment:

  1. Perhaps you could publish this in a really famous magazine or book and make millions and look back after you beat it and thank your cancer for for making you a millionaire.